transition
I have a friend who is very all over the place, but he's not a bad person by any means, and I do still value his friendship and the random wisdom he imparts on me from time to time.
The other day, he randomly wrote some poetry, or maybe more accurately he was just spilling out words to me, but he sent me:
when the flowers bloom in spring and the clouds go past the horizon
when the rivers glow with its lonesome waves
if you feel stranded in the middle
of a road with no directions
remember low taper fade
The last line is probably a bit nonsensical. He tends to be like this. He lives in the southern hemisphere, where it will soon be fall. I live in the northern hemisphere, so I replied to him:
the flowers will bloom soon
or rather, they have started
and yet i feel like it's still too soon
He thought I was just replying with more poetic remarks, but I was just telling it how it is. The plum blossoms have already bloomed and were probably in full bloom a week or two ago, though I haven't gone to see them myself—I've only seen them through pictures a certain someone has sent me. My parents told me the peach blossoms back at home have already bloomed as well. The cherry blossoms will be next, perhaps near the end of the month.
I guess for many people, spring is the start of new beginnings. I said that I felt like it was still too soon, in which I mean emotionally for me, and definitely for that person as well. Is it a new beginning for me? Or is it going to be a continuation of my same bad habits? Well, I've stayed up all night up until the morning again... But technically spring has not yet sprung, so who knows? Maybe next week I'll have a normal sleeping schedule and be on top of things.
This would be a great opportunity to get rid of the things I no longer need. Which brings me to something I've been thinking about for a while. What do you do with old memories you don't want anymore?
I have considered burning old photos with exes, ex-friends, etc.; or maybe shredding them, or simply just throwing them away. The other option instead of getting rid of them forever is to put it in some sort of box or drawer and leave them there until you have to move again. I used to be of the mind that memories are memories, so it's better to keep them and cherish them, even if things didn't pan out with the people in those photos and whatnot. These days though, I feel more inclined to just let it all go, but I hesitate to actually pull the trigger. I'm still undecided. I think I'll ask others for some opinions on this.